Faith, hope and love (:

Monday, December 26, 2011,12/26/2011 02:24:00 AM

Heartaches are worse than any physical hurt or cuts. Never share a huge part of your heart and life with someone else apart from your family, until you're so sure that he/she is the one you want to be with for life. So true. So much regrets.

Screwed me, please unscrew me, Lord))))):

At a loss now arghh

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Sunday, November 6, 2011,11/06/2011 11:04:00 PM

Never entrust your entire happiness on mankind alone. Humans are bound to fail.

"One thing I know I'll find all I need, in your unending love"

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Sunday, October 23, 2011,10/23/2011 11:42:00 PM

There's only one need in a person's life.
Jesus said: Let not your heart be troubled.
Guard our hearts on the inside, and he'll guard the rest outside!!

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Wednesday, October 19, 2011,10/19/2011 11:29:00 PM

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Thursday, October 6, 2011,10/06/2011 07:42:00 PM

There's no real place called home, other than the house of God.

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Sunday, September 25, 2011,9/25/2011 01:02:00 AM

Caught between self-gratification and being wholeheartedly submissive to God.

Time to let go of what you want, and what God wants for you, Julia!

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Sunday, July 17, 2011,7/17/2011 07:49:00 PM

Sadness due to unfulfilled expections based on unscriptural views. So true!

Anw thanks loisyyyyy<3 u r such a blessing!
:D

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16/7
Was initially rather lazy or reluctant to leave hse, heading to bedok den Ecp fr class outing! Although there weren't many ppl, but I rly enjoy my time with these awesome classmates:D setting up our own 5R pit! the times I especially enjoy is when I get to talk to each person and learn soso much abt/from them! Such a fruitful day spent, I hope more ppl would come the next time(:
As I was walking back home, saw v dark clouds all over the vast sky, but a v bright moon reflecting/shining soso brilliantly And magnificently, instantly reminds me of God's radiance and light shining ever so brightly in our dark nights, shedding light in times when all else seem dark and directionless! The sky is just so beautiful! Seeing it just makes me so happy (:

Gdnite!

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Monday, July 11, 2011,7/11/2011 11:44:00 PM

"when we receive Jesus, a seed is planted in our hearts. It may not shoot up overnight, but give it time and nourishment, and it will grow into a strong tree with fruits and many seeds." :D

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Thursday, July 7, 2011,7/07/2011 09:35:00 PM

How beautiful nature is! i want to sink into God's wonderful creation!

Your love and faithfulness rise as sure as the morning sun (:

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Sunday, June 26, 2011,6/26/2011 10:15:00 PM

How shall I ask for the best, when I alr have You, my best?:D

Soo encouraged! Your joy is my strength!

And thanks Kwan for that msg, my dear sister:D

Not abt the As, but my utmost best for Him! Resting in You daddy God! :D

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Friday, June 24, 2011,6/24/2011 08:55:00 PM

No worldly love prevails .
Only God's love will.

How more secure can anything be than Him?
So many ppl try to seek for the fulfilling thing their hearts yearn all along fr, but realizing that even aft getting them, what and where's next? We aren't getting anywhere! Emptiness within the heart and eyes.
But it's only when we turn away from self, will we than focus on Him that far outweighs all things.

Only when our every ounce of self-reliance is removed, and that everything around us becomes dark, will then the light within us starts to radiate and shine! But are we ready to give up some things to achieve greater things and His way ahead?

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Thursday, June 16, 2011,6/16/2011 02:03:00 AM

"you are my all in all"

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek, you are my all in all

Seeking you as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'll be a fool, you are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless your name, you are my all in all

When I fall down you pick me up
When I am dry you fill my cup, you are my all in all

Typing song lyrics makes me feel uplifted!:D
Unhealthy emotions in this world can bombard so easily when you are away from the Lord!
Daddy God tomorrow shall be a brand new day, picking up and I'm rising again in YOU!
:D

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Monday, June 13, 2011,6/13/2011 02:29:00 AM

Life has so many phase and stages for us to go through and enjoy, why for rush through or give up some along the way?(:

Haha, just more immature than I thought I wasnt!
Thanks so much jie, For letting me get out of this. Love you so much.
And ultimately, thank God for all Your guidance n wisdom!
I may not know what the future holds, but I know who holds my future. Amen!

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Sunday, June 12, 2011,6/12/2011 10:36:00 PM

Change is indeed the only constant in life.

Only if letting go was easier.

God, your strength is all that I need right now, and let your person and finished work be magnified n glorified in my midst!
I don't want bitterness to grow in my heart, and purify n renew this heart and mind of mine Lord.

Walk On The Water - Britt Nicole
http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=US#/watch?v=F4ptPEm8gjE

You look around, staring back at you
Another wave of doubt, will it pull you under? You wonder
What if I'm overtaken? What if I never make it?
What if no one's there? Will You hear my prayer?

When you take that first step into the unknown
You know that He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities, they try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more, so don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water, too

So get out, and let your fear fall to the ground
No time to waste, don't wait, and don't you turn around and miss out
Everything you were made for, I know you're not sure
So you play it safe, you try to run away

If you take that first step into the unknown
He won't let you go

Step out, even when it's storming
Step out, even when you're broken
Step out, even when your heart is telling you
Telling you to give up

Step out, when your hope is stolen
Step out, you can't see where you're going
You don't have to be afraid
So what are you waiting, what are you waiting for?

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It takes so so much to obey and abide.
Beyond my control.
It's all left to You.

Drained mentally and physically.
I just need a spiritual recharge tmr, Lord.

<3

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Wednesday, June 8, 2011,6/08/2011 11:18:00 PM

Not going to compromise the the best that has yet to come for now!
:D
Much more things instored we've yet to discover!

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Sunday, June 5, 2011,6/05/2011 11:55:00 PM

I Fall At Your Feet
by Ronnie Lew - Copyright © 2004 New Creation Church

You are my covering
In You I have everything
You're all that I need
My world is complete

How precious Your offering
It's not about what I can bring
It's Your sacrifice
That has brought me in
Into the Holy of Holies

CHORUS:
I fall at Your feet
Declare You're my King
I cast my cares before You
Your peace shall reign in me

I fall at Your feet
Declare You're my King
I live my life in worship
Your grace abounds in me

Awesome song!! With God, we already have everything !

My weakness is the qualification to your strength.
"my grace is sufficient for you, and my power is made perfect in your weakness"

Let your might pull me through this crazyy mugging period rest-freely and yes Julia, YOU CAN DO IT!:D

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Monday, May 16, 2011,5/16/2011 11:48:00 PM

Over-concern / act of impulse / getting back at others simply to relieve the plague in your heart?
So filled by your own anger and emotions that you are actually entrapping yourself within self-inflicted sadness.
Nevertheless, a family is meant to forgive, and forgive, and forgive, and love without boundaries or condition!

Disappointed, but Lord, you are gona make a way out for me.

"You Are My All In All" song is an effective joy reliever heehee:D
And, Happy birthday papa!! i love you soo much. <3

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Sunday, May 15, 2011,5/15/2011 10:43:00 PM

"Every Move I Make"

Every move I make I make in You
You make me move Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You

Every step I take I take in You
You are my way Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You

Waves of mercy, waves of grace
Everywhere I look I see Your face
Your love has captured me
Oh my God, this love
How can it be?

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Thursday, May 12, 2011,5/12/2011 11:33:00 PM

12May, a very special day that can only be celebrated in my heart.
Mummy, I love you. (:

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Monday, May 9, 2011,5/09/2011 02:06:00 AM

‎”i may not have any hands to hold my wifes hand. but when the time comes, i’ll be able to hold heart. i don’t need hands to hold her heart” - Nick Vujicic

Living life without limits, without limbs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8ZuKF3dxCY

Such an inspirational testimony, 'to be thankful for what we have, rather than being bitter for what we don't'.
Our spirit can never be crushed despite our mortal body, but it can be soo transformed and renewed when we turn to JESUS!

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Saturday, April 30, 2011,4/30/2011 10:13:00 PM

tmr shall be my first time serving in Rock Kidz and God, pls give me the strength and wisdom to commit in every of ur way, guiding and watching over me! Young lives being nurtured and shaped, so cool! :D
heavy PI and MRP load, but IM GONA OVERCOME U TWO SOSO SOON.
DON'T SLEEP/GIVE UP JUST YET, JULIA, JIAYOU!!

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Sunday, April 24, 2011,4/24/2011 12:27:00 AM

Sometimes trying so hard to hold on so tightly to it, when I realize it wasn't even mine at the start. These Grasping for the wind is making me go nowhere abt this as much as I'm trying hard to let go. Julia~!!
I must master the skill of compartmentalizing my thoughts n feelings!

On a lighter note, met dayi n karenjiejie fr breakfast, then met jiejie n i's baby sitter- auntie n Joreen jiejie 10yrs since fr lunch.seeing auntie who has turned 73 who once carried me, fetch me bak hm, massaging my many blue blacks fr fighting n injury in e past, saying 'panlai' etc, her eyes nv grew dim, n are r ever filled with zest and love n compassion. I'm so thankful n touched, I wish I could stay tgt with auntie agn. miss childhood days so much.

Den dinner buffet with Xinni Yuhong Chengyu Alfino junbo. Met Joreen jiejie at ramen culture agn!so happy!! Haha. Walked a v short journey down marina bay aft that. Shall reserve the rest of the walk with someone else next time!

Gdnite!

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Saturday, April 23, 2011,4/23/2011 11:31:00 PM

almost everyone around me are yearning for a bf or gf or alr found 1. God... why do these ppl happen to be all around me? ~~
and it's so hard to find someone in this world whom we can truly love and to be loved by
to even feel this way, i know you're alr reminding me to fix my eyes on u, and your ways may not be what i hope for, but i know it's definitely the best plan instored for me! Let me be totally secured by your great great ultimate love i can ever ask for, and to use this youth to grow in you and follow your path set for me.
This phase of life is bringing in so much temptation to do things according to my will or temporal satisfaction, but pls let me nt be distracted by those stuffs that are gona come by day and gone by night (you know them) and keep me on the right track!
julia, u endured 1 week alr! keep going, and you can do it with His strength :D

and i realise those ppl i rly look to in the past are... ~~ ): open their eyes and their heart once again for u lord!
i've made this commitment to submit to you, let it be now, and forever.

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Saturday, April 16, 2011,4/16/2011 11:17:00 PM

julia, julia, julia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really don't understand you at times, and there's so much more for me to learn about you!

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Monday, April 4, 2011,4/04/2011 12:15:00 AM

Acquaintances VS True frens?

Learning to not let feelings,which is temporal, to rule my heart n mind. and I guess the only way to do so is to turn my eyes away from self, focus on your way. Daddy God u r with me n for me<3!

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Monday, March 28, 2011,3/28/2011 07:38:00 PM

28/3/11. AWESOME DAY:DD

sustained the day with 1.5hrs of slp aft preparing ah loisss' gift n dng CSE body para. not a v pleasant morning and also had quite a bad premonition, so prayed that i'm able to sustain and to overcome whatever is to come, physically or emotionally. some incidents happened which im sure that in my natural self, i would have felt outrageously pissed and start reasoning it out with others, but to my amaze, i felt calm and peaceful inside, and those stuffs juz didn't bothered me at all! plus my morning dizziness, that tolerance and patience :D
celebrated lois bday in the morning n this is the most expensive cab fare i've ever seen in my life! but still, glad that we manage to celebrate and do almost as according to plan:DD papa came down to cck area too wanting to help us in any way if we need, and i feel so blessed n touched srsly, couldnt have imagine my dad doing such a thing in the past haha. my life and family transformed so much aft You entered, and i just can't be more thankful (:
thought i wouldnt be able to pull through 2.4, but just went ahead and whoaaa, only 1sec drop in timing to 13:06 compared to last yr, despite not training/exercising fr so long !
then comes geog results. didn't expect too much but juz hoping fr the best, and i know the B i've gotten is srsly not by my self-efforts, super grateful for it!!! hahahah :D

revelation: we can forgive, but don't forget. if not, how and when are u gona learn from your lesson?
and life is soooooo fabulous when we are not led by feelings which is temporal - here by the morning and gone by the night, inward, downward; but by faith, the unshakable foundation that is enternal, outward and upward!

there's just so much flaws in me, yet you love me just the way i am. Renew my mind, transform me day by day Lord, as i commit whatever i have in my hands to you. (:

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Thursday, March 24, 2011,3/24/2011 10:19:00 PM

i rly hate it when others take advantage of your goodness and thinks that it is sth they deserve since it has all along been this way. ARGHHHHH so so pissed and dissapointed. everyone seeks love, but even before trying to find someone who loves you, please learn to love others first as well. forgiving and letting go umpteen of times is draining me so much, even emotionally and this is kinda forcing me to become more selfish, just as the way the world may seem to b working that way. but i don't wana be likewise, cuz i know i'm not perfect myself, and i need forgiveness as well.
GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, THIS IS INCORRIGIBLE!!!! rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lead me to press on and walk through this, and i commit all these to you.
thanks kwan,and lihui,lois,alfino btw. (:
PISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSED but i know you have the best way of working this out!

time for PI!

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Friday, March 18, 2011,3/18/2011 11:32:00 PM

Everyday's heart-wrenching headline abt Japan. So many lives taken, unrepairable hurts. God, let your love and mercy be seen so truly in their toughest times, gooo Japan!
Life is so unpredictable. Yet taking certain things for granted at times. Rly have to learn to see the value of everything around me!!

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Sunday, March 13, 2011,3/13/2011 12:40:00 AM

I think I am gradually overcoming this alr wakakaka go Julia!!

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Wednesday, March 9, 2011,3/09/2011 10:43:00 PM

Recharging of the spiritual fuel tank feels sosososo good! Its so amazing when the Word comes so handy n speak to u in ur situations, being so enriching and nourishing! Thankyou Lord!
Unworthy me, still focusing so much part of my heart n mind on things in this world that can rly make me feel so zzzzzzz, when u could actually make me feel so :DDDDD!!!!
2 corinthians 6 & colossians 3

This is the day that you have made, I will rejoice and be glad in it(:

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Friday, March 4, 2011,3/04/2011 10:47:00 PM

If this is what you want, I'm not gonna be concerned more than I should anymore, and as much as it affects me, I'm really letting go this time.
I'm totally convinced that some things just need to be forgone.
No point holding on to sth so tight, grasping for the wind.

God, I hope I made the right decision.

On the brighter note, I can't be more proud of my jiejie's performance for A lvl, Thank God and I'm sure mummy,papa,me and ppl r sooooooooo overjoyed for u:D
And not to forget, RV'2010's yr6 batch! Feel so enlightened and happy for all of them !(:

Gdnite!

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Monday, February 21, 2011,2/21/2011 07:54:00 PM

"let go, let go, let go" this word has been speaking to me for quite some time, and I guess it's time to heed it. Committing so much of my energy and time to so many friendships, and as much as it's a passion n strength, this can become a weakness too (thanks for letting me know, Kwan(: ).

Learning to let go of things I once held so dearly to, trying to accept the fact that we don't need/ won't have that much friends in our lives actually. I am so so thankful for the many awesome friends I'm blessed with,but right now, I wana re-prioritize my time, my love again lord, to not have any substitutes for u, but to put u in the centre of my life!

Relationship stuffs can rly bombard the mind so badly. But I ask that this bondage be freed from my heart and mind Lord, renew whatever that is in me, and reveal more of your works to me each day. You are my alpha and omega(:

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011,2/15/2011 10:17:00 PM

Let your words, actions, thoughts and deeds be in one, and don't choose to be lukewarm; give it all, or nothing at all.

It's time to guard your heart, tongue and mind, stop seeking the wrong direction or things to fulfill what you thought u lack, when in Him, all things are already complete, inside out.

Julia, stop staying at where you are right now, but start taking your first step out of here.

If you're sad, helpless and directionless, seek Him, He's where you find the best route planned.
Appreciative, thankful, overjoyed, be generous to express it.

Start being more conscious of that little voice inside there, constantly reminding you of what's good or not. All things are permissible, but may not be beneficial. commit to your words. No more excuses.

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Friday, January 14, 2011,1/14/2011 07:04:00 PM

The Difference Between Infatuation and Love

Text from:
http://www.gnmagazine.org/issues/gn89/difference-between-infatuation-and-love.htm

So it seems that what most people are calling love isn't love. Just what is it then?

The simple truth of the matter is that our modern world has confused love with infatuation. Think about it: Almost every time we hear love referenced in popular culture, it's something people fall into. Unexpectedly. Accidentally. All of a sudden your heart is aflutter and you feel an intense attraction to another person. That pounding in your chest sounds like "love at first sight" rather than "raging hormones."

But the Bible makes it clear that godly love is a conscious choice one makes—an action, not an accident.

"The direction of infatuation is inward. The direction of love is outward. Infatuation is most often temporary and depends on reciprocation to survive. Love stands alone, depending on nothing for its survival. Love is an imitation of God, while infatuation is a recognition of our attraction for the opposite sex. Love is a way of life."

Time and place
Infatuation is, as Scruggs notes, a "natural attraction for a young person to feel for a member of the opposite sex." In other words, it'll happen whether you want it to or not.

The tough part we face, as Christians, is knowing what to do with that attraction. Experience has likely already taught each of us that such a feeling can easily blind us to reality, keeping us from seeing another person as he or she actually is and causing us to miss important warning signs.

It takes wisdom to be able to acknowledge an attraction to another person while at the same time keeping that attraction in check. While there's nothing wrong with being attracted to someone, we must be sure to handle that attraction responsibly, without giving in to its foolish desires or recklessness.

After we've taken the time to get to know the other person, to understand his or her values, personality and character as objectively as possible, to seek and consider God's guidance as well as input from trusted friends and family members, and after we've come before God to commit ourselves to that person for the rest of our days, then comes the time to get swept up in mutual attraction.

The book of Proverbs contains these happy instructions for the married man: "Rejoice with the wife of your youth, . . . and always be enraptured with her love" (Proverbs 5:18-19). It's worth noting that the Hebrew word translated "enraptured" can literally mean "intoxicated" as well. A husband and wife are then finally able to let their guards down completely, each always enraptured with the love of the other.

A time for love?
While being enraptured has a proper time and place within marriage, the Bible is clear that another type of love—that directed toward others—is to be timeless and without boundary. So important is true, godly love that Jesus Christ Himself emphasized it as the defining characteristic of Christians everywhere: "By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another" (John 13:35).

Our love—our outgoing concern for others—should be such a part of us that it defines us in the eyes of those around us. Love is not to be directed at just one individual or a select few, but the entire world.

What, then, is the real difference between love and infatuation? Infatuation is about pleasing the self. But love—love is all about becoming like God!

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Sunday, January 2, 2011,1/02/2011 11:09:00 PM

First service of 2011! I’ve never seen new creation that that packed beyond its usual packness. Reached church 10min. b4 2nd service at 11am, yet rock audi, lvl 4,6 overflow rooms full, gallery west almost. thank God my sis came first with her bf to book seats early!
Theme of 2011: In the midst of famine, God’s protection surrounds you like a shield!

Slept at 4am and woke up at 9.30am, my body just cant tune back to the normal time(sch’s starting in 2days time~~), and the flu and cough bug is attacking me such that I feel like im swallowing mucus and phlegm every moment :@! Saw yongyang aft service( so long since!!!) and cell grp-feli bryan etc. had high tea at Equinox on 70th floor of swissotel n the view was magnificent! Singapore is progressing and flourishing so rapidly, thank God! All the food looks good, but I can’t taste anything:S
Spending the last hol. with vball girls tmr and srsly believing that this flu n cough is just gona be rid so so soon!

DON’T SLP, PRESS ON FOR THE LAST PAGE OF GP!!!

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Friday, December 31, 2010,12/31/2010 11:58:00 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!:D 2011 SHALL BE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD! REVIEWING 2010...

Most ppl seem to be in a party mood and getting themselves all high counting down, n was supposed to go to marina bay with my family for countdown, but ends up no, supposed to go to east coast park with my cousins, but my sis doesnt want. so... ended up playing frisbee with my sis at home!MY SIS IS THE BEST SIS/FRIEND/GOD-SENT<3

looking back, 2010 has been such an eventful year i so miss! A simple RVian, yet God just poured so so much favour upon me!
First, thanks to hanying for recommending me as 4K's chairperson, to allow me to be exposed to so much opportunities such as SC camp(the most most impactful and fun camp i ever attend planned by JJC), being Fam I's fam head tgt with bryan, P6 LCD camp, RVFM n so forth! but my results are the worst this year, devoting so much time to other areas lol, time to buck up in 2011! most imptly, Without God, i am NOTHING.

made really alot of friends this year - cute vball juniors, SCs, FUN, AYLC facs and participants, thru camps and events etc.

shall zoom in to individuals who made 2010 so different:
1. God!
2. My lovely, precious mummy!
3. My sister<3
4. My dad! dayi, sanyi, MJJ, KJJ, presley, audrey, royroy, darryl, auntie!
5. Kwan & Lois
6. Jerian & Tingzhen
7. Ziyu, siannee, joyce, gen, jiayu, gina waimun
8. 4K'10 <3!
9. lihui, kaiping, rae, heping, yifei, joshua tay, danish, LG, yude etc!
10. hanyun & dulcia
11. TieNing, Yilin
12. all teachers who guided me!
13. everyone else:D

personal msg:
LJS: Kwan Lois
sisters! thanks for being there through the hardest time that really change my perspective about life, and im still keeping the cards u guys gave to encourage me (the doraemon drawn-lois, the verses n words-kwan) lol.

KWAN:
truly appreciate the prayers u led during times i couldn't hold back my tears at the rooftop and also tears of joy outside the classroom,the long long hours of talking pushing a trolley in NTUC w/o buying anything, walking around jp agn n agn as u eat ur choco cone so often n i drink my bubble tea almost everyday, joining ur cell grp for sports day, talking on the phone, intercessions, planning bday ah etc, i rly enjoy talking to you abt anything and everything. thanks for not being so judgemental and accepting, seeing the pros in God's children, stepping down to people's level to understand and listen to their problems even though you may nt have a solution, caring abt others whether they r close to u or not, and most imptly, teachable and humble! (so much to learn from!) you may not outstand within a group, but in fact, His glory radiates from within you that i cant help, but be in awe of our daddy God's work in your life(: I'm so thankful seeing Him pulling you through the conflicts, relationship, being a LGL esp, and making u less blur~ hah you r someone i'm gona miss rly v v badly, but i know, we will still have to carry the cross and follow the path He has carved out for each of us. touch lives and strive to not just speak words, but carry them out and keep shining! seeing you mature each day, love you XKK, keep shining!

LOISYYY:
from the day u lost your EZ-link card crying on the bus, and helping u to call benson to help, to tdy, being the person who go out the most often with me! i bet u enjoy the many hours tgt heehee;) anw rly see the change in u within 2yrs, from a girl who is quite vulnerable, don't voice out, super gentle, to someone who i find becoming more n more like me lol. pls dont blame me abt the auntie part, cuz i believe u r alr this way, just tat others didnt see many sides of u previously! sry for making u cry everytime during our HTHTs where i pt. out diff tings, but u know i meant well(: i treat u exactly the way my sis treats me, and u always remind me of myself when i was with lihui in sec 1&2! being quiet and shy lol~ enjoyed i cant figure out why can we be that close and never fail to thank God for bringing we 3 tgt. (btw i was sudd reminded abt the time i said u guys been thru joy, tears and blood tgt- when u all were making my big bday card which cut ur finger, + the incident in tiong bahru plaza's kopitiam:S:S) enjoyed taking care of u like my xiao mei mei, scolding the guys who disturb you, teaching self-defence methods, figuring out weird vulgarities ppl scold, discovering the 'lost of ur clothes', so many incidents i cant count. n the cambodia trip we managed to go tgt finally! thanks for accompanying me so many times when im supposed to go out with that person alone yet im super shy, and i know u didnt wana go at all, but for me, u still did heh. don't conform to what others say and make a stand, and be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger:D thanks for the prettily-drawn ikea jar and, dont cry like you did on 30/12! im still there whenever you need a listening ear or someone to rant to, and this isnt sth cliche, but u know i mean it. always put others b4 self, God is proud of you, and i love you(:

FUN: Lois Jerian Tingzhen
u guys are just sooooo.... AWESOME<3 i really love the times spent tgt doing anything, esp when exam period was close lol. got alot of scoldings from my sis for going out so often and etc, yet i still love going out with u all:D u guys rly brought fun and laughter, n sry that i exposed so much bad habits and for being so unglam and myself with u guys! i guess we came tgt aft the yr4 vball chalet where i became better friends with jerian aft night cycling at ECP, started talking and planning to do last min LA hmk tgt! since i was v shy as usual, we called along a guy and a girl who were last min homeworkers too each, and we roamed around clark quay, then creating our 'who wants to be a millionaire' video at BK!

Jerian:
TYO! as i told you before, i once viewed you as those super famous and distant friend i knew by name, and nv imagined becoming friends with. n my perspective of u changed totally aft the vball chalet till tdy! anw i think you r the person i talk to the longest accumulatively in my whole life on the phone so far. everyday during the exam period other than physics paper and when u are bored(= alot of times)! you taught me alot abt diff theories and views learnt from your egoistic personality. i rmb u saying that you are God, and i must respect every religion. i duno whether to comment or laugh LOLOL. thanks for making the effort in restraining your sick jokes or umpteen vulgarities for us (xin ku ni le lol!), and i rly admire your egoism despite ultra suan-ings abt your pimples etc, which made me insensitive at times.. and behind your outward factors, i appreciate you just the way you are!(: you may seem super sociable or f_ _ _ _ (the word i thought was fatty:S) , but i find u a genuine and honest guy friend i can approach whenever i need, thanks for everything (other than the fact that you think i'm your MAID!)

Tingzhen
ttz! you always have so much energy and enthusiasm within you - singing and dancing whenever wherever. i rmb that night you made me laugh so much in ZG's house and times when we all go out tgt. you have the courage to say out your jokes no matter how cold it is, yong qi ke jia! behind your hyper side, you r in fact a gd listener abt personal stuffs, and you r quite thoughtful and mature~! it'll be btr if u remove your earphones when u r out... sry for pissing you with words i spoke too quickly w/o being sensitive ok, and as i said, tell me personally and dont just let the matter rest w/o saying alright! w/o you in fun clique, i believe we wouldnt have so much fun tgt as well as the HTHTs(: pls get ur driving license soon and drive us all next time! let's jiayou tgt no matter what next yr might take us to, and i believe you would do great, ttz! theres loadsa potential within u such as memorizing the whole san zi jin, rattling cantonese tai2 ci2, conversing in hokkien tgt, etc, thanks for changing suntec vouchers too :D:D hope you r back from marina sq by now n that u manage to catch the train despite buying ur macs icecream, n im still gona nag at you to slp early everyday yooo! when u need to find someone to talk, rmb you have a friend and clique out here for u!

will continue abt the rest other time(:

2011 resolutions:
1. In tough times, never give up on God, and do not be people-pleasing, but God-pleasing! let others see God's work in me!
( be joyful in hope, patient in afflictions, faithful in prayer!!)

2. *Family as priority!

3. Guard my heart. not let emotions rule my mind and decisions, pray before committing into anything

4. Not place relationships/guys/etc before God and rush into 1.

5. Appreciate everyone/everything i have right now, and be rejoice for whatever a day may bring

6. stop procrastinating! be on task

7. PUNCTUALITY. NO EXCUSES

8. less facebook, resist the temptation of going out to play, but mug more!

9. keep the passion to serve and learn, gain experience for future ambition!(:

10. Be humble*, teachable and receptive.

Life is never easy, esp., committing it to God, but only those who walk through the narrow gate shall see LIFE!

life in 5R'11 ahead... hoping for the best!

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Monday, November 22, 2010,11/22/2010 02:11:00 PM

I JUST REMEMBERED ABT THIS BLOG THE DAY B4 FLYING OFF TO CAMBODIA, SO I SHALL BLOG:D

this nov. holiday has been rly packed with P6 LCD camp, many cambodia TRIP pre-briefingS, 4K chalet, RV FM, nEbO Quest, and outings:D feels like im devoting so much time to ppl and cutting down my time spent with God, yet you are so merciful and loving as ever!!

During service praise&worship yesterday, we sang " i stand in awe of you, Glorious etc" & my heart is just so overwhelmed with the rich rich love i hardly experienced, and papa and i teared so badly, with tears of joy and thankfulness. Oh Lord, you r just so good to me! from a dad i despise, who hated God and who left me with a rly bad childhood, you made him grow to become more like Jesus, to put you first in everything he does, to show compassion and love out of the overflow of the heart, to to be the best dad i can ever ask for. Your tender mercy and forgiveness in my every times of need simply melts my heart and crush down every transgressions and trials!

True faith is built through tough times, and i'm willing to take on this path as long as you would lead me, and i know you will!

What is your purpose of life? For me, it's to serve and be a witness!

and am i too reserved or too sensitive abt my sharing etc..? learnt quite alot through talking with ppl in circle of trust, kwan lois, jerian tz etc.

and theres so much flaws in me which i need God's love to change. Humble this heart of mine, and to look to You in everything i do<3

There's so so much more to LIFE!

we are In this world, but not Of this world!

"I was, I am, I am to come."

FLYING OFF TO CAMBODIA LE. THANKS MISS TAN FOR THE CARD AND SUPPORT AND WE WILL MISS YOU!

HOPE TO HAVE A GREAT TIME LEARNING THROUGH SERVING AND HAVE FUN WITH MINGZHU BOONSION ZILIE LIVIA LESLIE DANISH QIZHANG LOIS YUNRONG SEOWRONG YUDE EELIN EVA LINGENG CHEEHOW ZHENZHI <3
and thanks everyone who supported our fund raising!

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Monday, July 5, 2010,7/05/2010 10:13:00 AM

Thank you, Lord!

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Thursday, June 24, 2010,6/24/2010 11:07:00 AM

hello!
(22/6)
rained n my umbrella flipped tis morning!! sorry yifan:D had interact club orientation and i guess the attendance was rly quite unexpected... anw hope RVIC will flourish and grow! gd chers too..........................

sprained my leg aft merely playing 13min of vball during the break wif magmag and cindy!duno y is there a big bruise on it too :S

waited at macs for lois and jerian aft lunch and writing multiple 'OXYGEN' on the balloons as i read <> and yay, 1/4 more to go! went to red dot design museum @ tanjong pagar tgt around 4pm and it isnt v fascinating... tupperwares and inventions that are mostly not yet created. looks lyk a replication of IKEA. and the toilets are rly artistic too, cracky walls.

then sat outside red dot deciding on which museum to go to next! and.... we landed at Art house instead of SAM as planned, seeing cat pics(eew) and practising as receptionist on the seats upstairs,taking a pic of the paper : VOX musical. instead of seeing the actual one. in the end,nth accomplished!

walked back to city hall starbucks waiting for the v-nt-punctual-teo-ting-zhen who cannot follow instructions on how to turn right and left and bang the wall! ate subway at the fountain n headed to clark quay. BUT, tz led us to some wrong bus stop and took cab there instead. my first time there and clubbers and smokers and drunkards and soccer fans look quite scary. walked to SG river in search of buskers, end up taking fake pics and posters of the river festival. while waiting fr the rehearsal to start at 11, we landed at BK WHOOPERS club and took a rly rly interesting and funny vid which made my day!:D im impressed at hw ppl coming tgt are able to generate such great inspiration!:D acting team ftw!!lets fa yang guang da 1 fine day(:
cab bak wif jerian n tz and reached hm at 12+. so.............................

(23/6)
overslept for installation the next morning. feel rly bad, but somehow, thank God i dint go aft hearing how they commented abt it.. reached jp at 11.20, met juniors n jerian at macs, bought eemin and gladys' present, then went arcade with jerian to play some games to self entertain ourselves meanwhile. lose everything:S
fyi, silent hills is nt recommended (:
bball and bishi bashi. but the levels in bishi bashi r so diff from wad i've played wif hanyun n dul! apparently, i loss badly lol.

then joined yf jovina eelin danish yude lg joel hongxiang xingjie jixiang fr class outing. thanks lois for being able to make it only at 4+.... and sry tyo and lg fr complaining so much abt whether i should go or not and if it's gona b awkward heh:D end up, i tink it was quite fun, n nt awkward actually yay~ went jurong's safra and i learnt pool finally, the right way! thanks ppl who taught me, xin ku le! hope we'll play some time again but ..... tampines safra instead?:D

another tiring day but thank God for the remaining energy! i wan to slp badly. thanks ppl fr making my day, love u guys! gdnite!

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Sunday, June 20, 2010,6/20/2010 10:17:00 AM

my blog is currently so nt up to date:D
anw i love this june hol so so much esp tis wk heehee. i guess i made alot alot of new frens through 1 of the CID group, our YAH health ambassador camp, AYLC campers, and interact club orientation and installation that is gona happen next wk. + p6 frens and vballers chalet, ahh u guys r awesome!:D

Shall start with health ambassador camp,

grp4!

terence waiyun magmag jiale chongyuan emily meredith gail lynn. u guys r great juniors and had fun wif u all, jiayou fr shui hu zhuan:D will have follow-up soon on weds when sch reopens:D
+ special thanks to weixuan fr looking so scary when we r playing H20, causing me to lose my feminine (uh hum) image completely and having throat infection fr 1-2 whole wk, (siannee, i dint purposely pon training!)
and eelin cynthia simin esther, great working wif u guys in prep. fr this camp(:
n thanks 4K helpers!without u guys, it wouldn't be as fun(:
lois shimin hanying yunfei jovina xuanyi jialing tricia engting zhiyang choonzuan joel ben yude yuhong danish lingeng

AYLC Family A3
Raimie Tzechong yeyun kirsten yueyin tienning zhangying ongmin zhechang qihao guannan
GLs:yujer & nicole tay
yay thanks guys fr being so funny and initiative to make A3 and AYLC camp worthwhile(: the 8D7N is coming, let's work tgt :D
n sry qihao fr cramming ur neck and i can't dance woots!:D:D n thanks ongmin fr patiently waiting fr me to finish my business at night when my stomach hurts lyk anyhow! hahaha touched!
tipa thirty poo thirty poo tipu thirty pa!

Vball chalet!
@Joyce @TingZhen @ziyu @Siannee @Jiayu @Gina @Genevieve soon @Sylvia @Jerian @peng siang @Hongkai @Paul @shikai @Choon hian

u guys r sooo fun to be with! and night cycling ftw,32km? and the curbs make my butt hurts lyk anything. n pengsiang choonhian hongkai, xinku le, 42km!! im in awe of u guys hahah. n i enjoyed talking with ppl who made it to east coast park lol! plus the rest who went back halfway, thanks tz fr all the fun.... games... lyk guang dong chao mian and qing ni gen wo zhe yang zuo, heart attack :D and it is berak x4, mmmm chi CHI. TZ. hahhaha. and silk air!

had a gd run @ pasir ris park tis morning with sanyi uncle andrew darryl roy audrey auntie and jiejie. hope we can do it every once a wk!

hanyun & dulcia:
u guys r dear to me!:D thanks for making me so crazy and sry for rolling and laughing outside JP's zone-X lol. and playing bball, bishi bashi, the hippo game (pulling out the hippo's head and hammer it and push it back in lol! wif only 3 tix!!) and cam-whoring those v disgusting no.1-10 poses which i will nv dare do wif any other ppl cuz only u guys r capable of doing as gross stuffs as me hahaha. ahhhhhh i miss u all so much! miss those days laughing and rolling all abt so hard, p.s- sorry alfino for tat stalking sms and phone call from hanyun lol

shall continue on the other post!

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Monday, May 31, 2010,5/31/2010 05:00:00 PM

4K loves u, mr yee!(:

hols. r finally here n its time fr me to catch up with my work! Anw thanks lois kwan engting zhiyang jixiang lingeng bolun, u guys have been great members to work with for our short film though it turned out.. u noe. lol. but we know we did our best n love working and laughing wif u guys:D

n i guess RV chi chers have rly put in a great effort, ty!

medan..nvm. hope there'll b much more trips ahead during EOY!

and the house of God is growing intensely n immensely! NCC is expanding to GV marina and, free popcorns aft service! haha yay thank God for salvation and mercy and ur abundant love!

hope our break free camp is gona work out well, jiayou eelin cynthia simin! we r gona do it well!(: health ambassadors dun pon the camp ok, its gona b fun:D

bye ppl!(:

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Saturday, April 24, 2010,4/24/2010 10:09:00 PM

Feels so sad for girls who change bf time and time agn simply to seek love n to fill their emptiness,end up hurting themselves so much

dating vs courtship

stop doing things u dislike to cover ur insecurities.
Protect and love urself. U r a beloved child of God! Precious,incomparable.most loved.

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Saturday, April 17, 2010,4/17/2010 01:35:00 PM

Julia --> Hanyun

Miss chua I miss u equally much x10!hah rly,going to 7-11 n cheers almost everyday aft sch koping the twister ting n spotting for video cam,calling dodo everywhere,gng dulcia's hse so often playing maple,her swing,swimming,ransacking her fridge n eating almost everything she haf,gng hm tgt n rebelling prefects tgt,bully yongyang,teasing xinping,being the fat fat bunch,jaywalking n got horned at,everything.laughing so much. N I realise we were so so bad n naughty tat I'm called a bitch last time :O lol! So glad tat our gd Lord made us where we r today n will nv forget the times we shared.even gng sakae to eat as much till we carn walk,let's go for the newyork newyork yesai burger challenge tgt soon ok!:D haha love u so much.tis post is specially fr u!hah.

Janice Yihan yy wanyu Wesley dul ziqi yeeler etc ,June hol zaijian!(:

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"The Lord is my strength and my song." Exodus15:2

so much happenings tis wk.ups n downs,yet strengthening me on the inside! N seeing the lives of ppl wif waivering faith,I realize tis truth, "without me,u can do nth."-matthew 15:5

there's so much I wana do,yet I Noe everything takes 1 step at a time.

Many persecution. Judgement. But I shall learn not to take wad others say at heart n let go!!

If a person is loved with a reason, be it appearance,virtues,riches or honour and fame, wad shall become of them if they've lose these qualities?

I wana love the ppl around me more,nt fr who/what they r,but fr their identity, child of the most high. God help me! (:

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Saturday, April 10, 2010,4/10/2010 12:34:00 PM

http://www.alivenotdead.com/vannesswu/blog.html#return-xspace-entry943999

vanness wu's blog is a great encouragement.check it out!(:

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Posting some belated gifts hah.choonzuan gave a voodoo doll fr my bday on his bday lol.n thanks kp fr giving me a shorts than is lyk 10cm long,a super tight n small shirt n earrings n headband yest!u Noe I'm nt tat kind n yet wana zao4 fan3 isit lol.but ur letter mattered to me most Ty<3 (: n Ziyu fr the pencil case u handmaded!:D oh plus a snow globe cynthia gave the other time(:

I duno wad make me deserve these blessings,but I wana keep shining for God despite so many lives around me tat seems up n down,which affects me at times,but I rly haf to stand firm in Him,no matter how tough it may b(: I see u workig daddy God,tat I may have peace n rest!reveal ur truth n plans for me,cuz tis life of mine is nt for me to path out according to my desires,but by ur callings!bless the brothers n sisters around me to b an encouragement thru tis race,such tat I may come boldly to ur throne when te endtime comes.n ,the end time is near. V v near. Catastrophe,earthquakes drought flood tsunamis etc r ona come,but the one who press on shall gain victory!

Lord give me strength.

(:

Btw only yest did I know ily=I love you. Oh man lol.

Good Saturday ppl,cya(:

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Sunday, April 4, 2010,4/04/2010 11:06:00 AM
God's blog by danny donoho

borrowed tis bk called God's blog by danny donoho n im so... impressed with the way God actually is, rather than those portraits and obsolete images or rituals. he is: I AM. past, present and future! tis is the most inspiring yet simple to read bk i've ever came across. shall post some interesting excerpts that consumed my heart and mind(:

happy easter day and thank God for the heavy rain of heaven's joy where He came to die for us, and raise us up ( you raise me up~ by josh groban <3 ) haf a great day ahead!(:

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Saturday, March 27, 2010,3/27/2010 11:22:00 PM

tired. geog test up next wk n i barely stared revising. anw im so engrossed in the bk 'the last song' by nicholas sparks which is gona be released into a motion pic soon, cast miley cyrus and greg hemsworth i tink. i realise theres actually so much tings to read in this world. books and 5copies of newsweek at 1 go, ge yan, newspaper, ST, etc etc. went for YAH talk (CID) at republic poly and whoaa, first time seeing a live debate between RGS and MGS, which emerged champion, among 2 teams. hah. kinda interesting and their english is sooo pro!i hope they r able to understand my engrish~

random sharing from the bk- it mentioned that when we ask or talk to God, He always hears and answers, but its not through hearing, but by the heart. so true!

duno y is my throat hurting so much so long since. mayb ive been chunking all sorts of crap, with bubble tea EVERYDAY. thanks to volleyballers and lois ong. thank God for the new school uniform hahaha.

ok gdnite!(:

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Thursday, March 25, 2010,3/25/2010 11:27:00 PM

i can unleash, vent and boom every anger yet disappointment right out of my tongue, but im juz gona take the narrow way, N SELF CONTROL, JULIA. no matter how the world revolves.

If God is for you, who shall then be against you?

God u see the tribulations etc, n in u theres justice!!!!!!!!!!!! though i dun see it right now, i noe u r gona b running this journey wif me.

n thanks kwan (:

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Thursday, March 18, 2010,3/18/2010 05:38:00 PM

Bak from 3D2N RVSC camp n it's totally awesome!!great thanks to all the JJC facils esp loh Yee francis oh n others lyk benny deleon zhongru Tommy n shermen etc! Chers,yujhun,shaotan,Siwei,Taylin,Kimberly,chikan n all planning committee,w/o u guys,we can forget abt all these wonderful activities n mass dance n gd food!

N Of cuz,FAMILY 4<3!! every single one of u r so so unique n different n great:D
yujia,Yili,yicheng,weilin,Priscilla,sheena,wanzhen,Sheryl,tienli,yihua,Eelin,huangching,ernchuen,choonhian,kangtze!

Day 1:
Enjoy all of u guys presence n spirit as we shout n cheer one another on even in our most drained n tired moments during RV Mental Hospital!it rly pushed me on n u guys made the game much much more worthwhile(: glad going thru blindfolded,in the haunted house,moving cones,pictionary n gaining 300,000+ pts,exceeding all the other groups!I realize,everyone has tis potential innerman,but juz abt whether it's being exposed or nt.

"when we r rly tired,yet able to stay strong,tats character"

Learnt 3mass dance n thanks to yujhun n shaotan fr leading n being so patient wif us hah.u guys did a great job! Painted 2big banners too.

Bidding for food is soo fun!thanks com fr providing pizzahut,salmon,Peking duck,famous Amos,subway cookies,mos burger,carls jnr,longjohnsilver,bk,bagua,longan,pepsi,kfc,haagan daz,polar cake,chips to bid fr wif the pts we scored!yumyum

Day 2:
had games finale n it's soooooo fun!!drinking eno,spinning,bursting balloons,den rolling in soap water,being spammed wif shampoo everwhere,washing one anothers' hair,kena poured by buckets,bombs n hose!

Thanks Priscilla n huangching fr cheorographing our 'down' dance fr RVSCnight n I tink u guys r so pro!rly.cuz I carn dance hah.
The whole drama studio totally turned into a nightclub wif tons of helium balloons n spot lights!all of us juz jump n shout n I guess I've nv gone so hype b4(other than hillsong concerts) sang songs n cried n tok.at the end of the night,thanks to weilin n Sheena fr koping loadsa helium balloons fr us to suck n produce rly weird n funny voices haha!mr leow said tat sucking too much would cause throat cancer:O choonhian... Lol. Went fr star gazing aft bathing.

Day 3:
Cleaned up,mass dance,tok in dance studio.mr leow shared abt his past experiences wif his mum who is a addictive gambler n he carn forgive her.when she passed away,he realize tat his toothpaste,detergent,plates,clothes were always washed n stocked by his mum,yet we nv realize all tat they've done.

Wad makes our parents proud abt us?

Anw I had tis strong prompting in my heart to share abt my own experience too n yea,tears n tears.but ultimately,I Noe I'm gonna meet mummy in daddy God's arms as we unite in heaven amen! Lord u r so faithful(: amen! Yea so we muz rly learn too love b4 it's too late(: thanks ernchuen n francis btw abt the stuffs u guys told me hah.it's rly encouraging(: did the mass dance the last time n I rly feel lyk a big RV family!
Went kfc lunch wif remaining ppl n hope u guys enjoyed ur movie hah.I love u guys sincerly from the bottom of my heart!we r leaders!we r gona make a change!! Jiayou everybody,love u guys(:

so tired alr,gdnite!

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Friday, February 26, 2010,2/26/2010 09:35:00 PM

YES ITS A FRIDAY!!:D:D

so tired yet so happy. bio test is finally over n glad tat i lose all the pineapple tarts ive eaten during CNY cuz of training today. so hiong!
n my knee cracks non-stoppingly! hurts n i feels lyk an old ahma so soon. haiyaya anw soo happy ! got 64cm fr sit n reach for the first time!! though jialing is aiming for max 70cm..pro! :D somehow quite excited for napfa :D

anw gina was rly great, told me theres 12hmk fr the wk right b4 training. so much n haf been slping too much in class. thanks ET fr nudging me up slightly more than 50times hahah. resolution: max. 20 times next wk!

great wk wif great ppl, n welcome yr 1 vballers! u guys r so cute:D jiayou! hope tat next wk's gona b fruitful and way to go~!

btw consider viewing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKbruE8SVfU 'you're the centre of my universe'

i tink its rly nice! hah ok byebye!

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Saturday, February 20, 2010,2/20/2010 04:54:00 PM

heyhey!:D YES! IM PROGRESSING! GUARDING MY HEART RLY WELL:D THANKS FR THE ENCOURAGEMENT KWAN HAH. my pastor says: only if we will know how to guard our heart, God will guard the outward, the rest. its rly so true tat there r so many tings around tis world which can capture and influence us. But no matter wad r revolving around us, most imptly, its abt whether u'l b able to stand firm and nt be easily swayed by the rest.

so totally agree wif joshua tay tat yes 'u r who u spend time wif' , 'only if u're easily influenced' wowww. n his eg. was: Jesus spent time wif the pharisees too, but was he influenced? NOO!
self control* !

got single digit/18 fr geog test and i rly tried my best ): God help me pls. bio and chi test up! im gonna rely on u once agn. (:

yes! ran 3km wif ziyu joyce jiayu yest aft training n i feel those cny pineapple tarts leaving my body yay yay yay hahaha. nid to gear up fr napfa n aiming for 50 incline pull ups! deproved 7cm for sit and reach ~ 61cm last yr n now 54cm oni. noooo. jiayou ppl! oh n medusa, u r so cute luh, go around publicizing tat u carn do 10sit ups consecutively n haf been cheating throughout lol. dun b so pessimistic <3!:D

n wads up wif the tons of korean band n craze... all of them somehow look the same. ok time to digest bio notes le. before tat,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLASSEN! U R THE FIRST PERSON WHO I RLY TINK IS NT ACT COOL YET COOL N FUNNY HAH. u're a great teammate<3!

jieli ur poster is still wif me~~ n i tink u r the oni person on earth tat has totally the same humour sense as me hahahah. we r soo funny!:S lol

sec1 batch came in yest too. manage to rmb a few names n 1 girl rmbs me since cca trial! so happy hah. played H2O n kena sabo-ed lyk wad:S thanks girls. u guys r the best. (...........................)

byee!(:

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Saturday, February 13, 2010,2/13/2010 03:06:00 PM

whether we're in the 21st contury or wadsoever, i strongly tink tat girls shudnt b the first to make the move!if the guy says nth,

1. he has no guts OR
2. hes juz not interested in u.

true? yes, heehee :D

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happy CNY n valentines day eve ppl!(:

thanks yifei fr making that chocolate mouse ting which is rly pretty, though ziyu ate more than half of it! hahaha cuz i wanted to wash the cup. n the rly thoughtful vball junior gwen! u're so sweet hahah ty<3! jas fr running out giving this super big tudor gold choc bar n i gave u milo in hope fr u to grow darker n stronger! btw i believe u can do it ok! n other ppl! tahnks gladys fr buying my valentines gift right when we 5go out tgt, n u keep prompting me abt which 1 is nice, wad i prefer, cuz u wana buy fr ur fren... v smart of u..lol. n choonzuan, hope u lyk the PINK stuffs hahah.

had reunion dinner the previous night b4 sending mary jiejie n presley to gold coast fr honeymoon haiz. 2 down. then swenson lunch @ compass point [klassen,soon, elizabelle, (hope i spelled correctly this time),jiayu,joyce,siannee,ziyu,myself] + ate super alot, without hitting 100bucks!:D joyce ziyu n i shared 5scoops of icecream plus siannee's n jiayu's remaining lol, mammamia!

bought darryl n dayi's present finally n oh man.. my pocket burst wif 50bucks out, and 60cents home D: overslept n took cab. the uncle super ultra nice, noe tat i'll haf to pay alot fr travelling from tampines to boonlay, he oni took 10bucks from me when my usual cab fare would hit 30+bucks if rushing! make me realise this world is still filled wif compassion n humanity whoots!:D thank God (: then steamboat dinner at san yi's house, wa got scallop(!!), crab, abalone, prawn,clam, etc etc all the ex stuffs shes so generous in offering, n had a great time bonding wif all cuz n relatives agn, love u guys :D

conclusion: I NEED TO EXERCISE MORE ALR.

stil rmb tat night when i was kinda disappointed in blahblahblah, bathing halfway n this line struck into my mind : If God did not give up on us, how can we give up on others? rly impacted me n i muz rly learn to b less affected by ppl's words and b more loving!

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." 2cor 4:16

right now battling against my mind too, last fruit of the spirit is self control!yes, tame myself b4 u lose urself w/o realising. n kwan, hold me accountable (:

oh n im getting immune to my alarm clock which is the sound of dog barking alr! oversleeping too often.carn afford to b late by asking hanying to fake my attendance lyk last time anymore, its my turn to mark attendance nw, ahhhhhhhhh go bak n slp le. byee! :D

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Saturday, February 6, 2010,2/06/2010 08:57:00 PM

looking through fb pics, and all those memories running up my mind, missing all those moments. oh man, feeling so 'wang shi zhi neng hui wei' -ish now D: only if God allows us to retrace our steps, to walk back the path we've once walked. let time cease for a moment. but, life goes on.

miss the times wif 2L girls esp. where everyone juz goes haywire, lafing n being tgt, 2L multiple trips to sentosa yet nv getting bored.lihui and rae i miss u guys haiz. ikea trip wif lois n kwan, trying out everyting, my first time taking so many pics,times wif 4K, every single nila utama watchmates, times wif vballer eating crapping everything, trip to chiangmai wif interactors which lost me tons of tears missing the kids n ppl n tings we do tgt there seriously, camps, overseas trip, times when mummy was wif us, feel lyk crying. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh byebye.

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Bdiv'10 u guys have been greatgreat teammates n i guess we bonded the most this yr?:D there were stil conflicts, misunderstandings, etc, yet we r stronger tgt as 1!(: im proud of all of u guys, the main team players, the effort n sweat n tears u guys put in rly warms my heart honestly speaking..heehee.i rly rly love every single one of u n thanks for bringing so much joy n encouragement at all times, being there even in my lowest pt of time as u guys noe, being there to hear my lame rants n 'jokes' n theres juz so much fun yet simple moments i wun forget. feel so thankful for being part of u guys, n we're forever 1 big family! whether im able to stay or nt stil in vball, u guys will always b a part of me ( mariah carrey's song. ok i duno how to spell her name lol) thanks thanks n thanks! <3!!! (despite flaming fb wif my unglam shots, which were so totally nt me..) im so glad im able to simply b myself, do wadever ugly tings i usually do n.. u guys sure noe, jiayou Adiv'11!

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Friday, January 29, 2010,1/29/2010 09:20:00 PM

nila utama, u guys r rly rly great great watchmates n all of u made what we are, ty

minmin
yingwai
yantong
binxin
william
jane
si wei (a.k.a shit a.k.a yi ren)
kian lin
pc
engting
kelly
jocelyn

sent my personal msg to all of u alr, n u guys muz noe tat im rly appreciative n thankful for all the tings u guys haf shown! guys, u r all extint ppl ive met n yingwai has constantly prooved his butt to b the biggest of anything else. and kelly, stop zao-xia ing! u're rly cute i muz say,medusa:D i may forget names at certain or most moments, but i'l nv forget the tings we''ve done tgt n stuffs u guys did! i love all of u v sincerely n.. bak to reality! adapting to life wif easy showers n bed n com. w/o ants etc. how i wish fr simplicity,but life goes on. haiya

n Lord shine ur light upon ppl at Haiti! nt easy fr them, but ur yoke is easy n burden is light, you'll fulfil it!(:

so so thankful for ur faithfulness and goodness,n thanks yantong fr teaching me the fruit of the spirit song too, u r rly great!(:

lois jane kelly yingwai joshua tay william waimun takecare!!

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Saturday, January 23, 2010,1/23/2010 08:33:00 PM

love u guys!:D

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Thursday, January 21, 2010,1/21/2010 10:32:00 PM

ty hanying for helping me compile the whole class message fr me into tis rly nice notebk n i'll treasure it 4K, ty every single 1 of u!(:

oh n i ken's msg which is super meaningful!

dezhu:
drew a doraemon. sheng ri kuai le!

16 now. not old. not young. you haf a mental age of 30+ but a appearance of a 16. lolz. feling happy after seeing all the messages from the class. Julia, act more femine and be a good girl. people say you are auntie. but you are just too mature for them. so be happy and live a happy life wish all the best for you.

wow, indeed 4yrs classmate is no kid! haha, someone finally understood from my POV! n it is actually xingjie! haha thank God fr him (:

clipboard from eemin!

ty eemin n i enjoy toking to u and i always take ur advices at heart! nui hai zi wan shang bu neng zai wai mian yi ge ren zou! n u r actually so full of insights and beauty from the inside! haha. hope tat u can make it fr more services n its so great to bring u there tgt (: tis is our 9th yr knowing each other since childcare!!:D <3!

ty grace, john 14:27 was the verse my ps emphasize last wk too! thanks so much<3!

ty jovina,esther n simin fr the doraemon cupboard though u guys dint take out the price tag haha

plus thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday and anw today wasnt a gd day. special great thanks to kwan who is so... so supportive and encouraging. thanks fr turning me to prayer as the first remedy to my sadness and God is rly working in u n u're growing so so much n fast! yo LG leader, u're gona impact many lives out there!(: i love u! and thanks gladys hanying engting. i noe i looked scary juz now, but u guys were stil there fr men gladys u're so thoughtful!(: btw its nt cuz of mr chng brrr lol oh n benjamin fr being sensible to help shout qi li xing li. (: he actually haf all his siblings in RV le! ok anw pray tat tmr wil b a btr day, n let go, let God! im nt strong enuf to face all these, but its u who calmed the stormy seas in my life, n strengthen my inner soul.much more ahead gbgb <3!

yay can go OBS alr!!!!! n b'div, we're gonna jiayou fr tmr's match yep!(: gdnite!

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Tuesday, January 19, 2010,1/19/2010 09:53:00 PM
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firstly, happy birthday to shawn sim too!:D hitting ppl's head wif ur big fat balloon n carrying 1 dollar coins on train n lrt n everywhere!

whoa feel so blessed, thanks guys who wished and remembered tis day even though i dint mention abt it to anyone other than ppl who keep asking me wad i wan fr my bday! lol.

first present received from my sis aft years since!:D:D red iphone cover!

2nd present from jiejie shaeron!:D

my virtual cake from audrey!

my dad treating my sis n i to this some chi poney restaurant at concord, ~~

thanks san yi fr treating dinner to celebrate mjj n my bday at seafood restaurant! though we ate snails (!!)

espirit umbrella, cookie monster shirt n sports --- from MJJ,KJJ and presley!:D

converse sneakers and artbox pencilbox from huang lihui and shawn sim! oh man HLH, i muz rly rly say tat our telepathy is stil super strong there yay!! whoa i love u guys, tyty! im so sry fr splurging on u 2 wallets, but i rly appreciate it <3! sssl, yes next yr mayb! hah. happy carrying 70 + 1 dollar coins yea(:

artbox pencil box from lois and shimin and engting!

huge huge card from lois n kwan! so super touched by the letter although lois ong, u rushed it out in the morning, writing so super big luh lol. but yes, i enjoy being wif u n as u said, shitting tgt too hahaha. n kwan! u make a huge impact in my life too, dun tink i'll b able to express the gratitude to God for putting we 3 tgt and i believe we're put fr great reasons, so that we'll b christ-centred and reflecting His light to others yep! i love u long silver! (n many ppl's leg kena scratched cuz of the super big card!!)

cushion and nike shirt from beloved volleyballers!!

thanks ho sian sian fr the personal letter n yes, i'll defnitely keep it cuz i'l rly need it anytime! n i noe u'll b there, tahnks so much darling, u're rly supportive too!4yrs le, n can rly see the great much much better change in u!:D <3
khoo ziyu fr reminding me abt uncles giving me discounts agn.. and yes, wadever u wrote, i felt the same n urs is in 9 more days, AUNTIE!:D by then, i'll spam my thoughts fr u(:
jiayu, thanks! yea keep shining n striving for God!
joyce, gen, gina, waimun, joya n all, u guys r great great teammates even though this might b my last yr wif u guys, but tis 4yrs definitely have its up n down, but yet, we're still there fr one another yep?(: thanks oso for the crumpler last yr which i haf splurged on u guys, yet u all r so generous n loving!:D i love u guys loads!!

wallet from joshua tay, yaoqing and danish!
u 3 once shorties, dun tink when u guys haf grown taller, u all can call me auntie ok! esp. yq and danish. sry if i may sound naggy to u 2 xiao didi, but its fr ur own gd !:D and joshua tay, muscles r nt everything n u noe tat rly well:D thank u fr being such a great great great fren whom i can rly confide and seek help from in up n down times! u're a man of great wisdom and vessel for God, n im beginning to look to u!(: yes, keep shining!

papaya from rae foo n lois ong!
u 2 horrible! i finished the papaya fr dinner btw hoho. ty so much fr even considering to bring a durian as my present! hah. nowonder lois ong ask me wad fruit i lyk yest:S Rae foo u're a rly special little girl yet wif a special horrible laughter. but i love the way u simply r!(:

doraemon keychain n contact lens case from joshua ang:D
hah i lyk the part in ur letter when u mention tat u're apologetic fr nt having enuf time when i nid help or wadsoever, cuz most of the time r spent eating n slping lol! yes, pangsai n tok abt the smell. open urself up to frens n noe tat there r stil frens out there whom u can rely n trust on but nt to the fullest extend, cuz Jesus is our best fren whom will nv leave nor forsake us yep?(: ty so much fr being such a wonderful and caring fren, oh, n dun always describe urself lyk a pig ah! tyty fr searching my present despite injuring ur both knees, im so sry! takecare n nid help, u noe.

cake tin, bear pen, smiley pouch, some pills, artbox pencil box and loadsa toblerone choco from yifei, heping, bella, jaslyn, songning isit? haha 2L girls!
u girls nv fail to make my day and heping, do noe tat everytime u way super happily, it rly cheers me up and i miss the days where we sit tgt, toking throughout every lessons n nv getting scolded.. thank u girls fr making a diff. in me n i love u all!(:

handphone strap from 4K!
thanks every 34 4K members fr being great classmates, n rly hope we can treasure our last yr tgt creating legacy! hah ty!

Shoes from hanying! ty soso much moly lee, noe tat whether u're a rly enthu or solemn girl or wadsoever, everyone loves who u r n juz b urself! u're a rly sensible and gentle girl actually, i believe u:D ty so much fr helping to collate the whole class msg into a bk fr me, <3!!!

doraemon toothbrush and mug, contact lens case and nail clipper from yifan, michelle,sze nee, jialing, hanying, miriam, gladys and joya <3!
u girls rly make a difference to wad 4K is lyk n having u guys as a part brings me joy n thanks fr bearing wif my crap, great yr ahead wif u guys!:D

rest of the pic post next time. soso happy that so many of the ppl who writes the letter even include 'God bless you", whether they r christians or not, u guys r so thoughtful and juz... ah, i can oni say i love all of u!

oh n witness a girl fainting flat on the mrt train tis morning. quite shocked, but according to joshua tay, she tripped over a guy's bag. sounds quite ridiculous, but thank God she gain consciousness once she reached jurong east n.. phew.

gdnite! (:

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